Its been a while since I have written anything worth reading.

Shudder Shift

I won't be dying after all, not now, but will go on living dizzily

hereafter in reality, half-deaf to reality, in the room

perfumed by the fire that our

inextinguishable will begins

-Timothy Donnelly

I am a collection of the past

And that is breaking off by

The molecule

By the millisecond

The constant crumble

Of who I am

A line into the past

Im not sure if I ever could

retract my steps though

Two Sides of the Desert

Is reality too powerful for you?

Take the risk. Believe what you see and hear. It's the pulse of every secret intimation you've ever felt around the edges of your life.

-Don Delillo

art viewing art, confused

that there are others

worth absolutely nothing

but adored

It Was Meant to Happen Ages Ago

While the wielder of the dead

Will read my tattoo(s)(?)

And laugh

At such sifting attempts

Of permanence

An apple

Plucked clear by will of taste, color

Strength, beauty, roundness, seed

Absent of all god painted, present everything

-Jack Spicer

Running to the City

As a child

I did many innocent

And vague things

Worthy of poetry

But now,

In my urgent age,

I just pretend

1. Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for yr own joy
2. Submissive to everything, open, listening
3. Try never get drunk outside yr own house
4. Be in love with yr life
5. Something that you feel will find its own form
6. Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind
7. Blow as deep as you want to blow
8. Write what you want bottomless from bottom of the mind
9. The unspeakable visions of the individual
10. No time for poetry but exactly what is
11. Visionary tics shivering in the chest
12. In tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you
13. Remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition
14. Like Proust be an old teahead of time
15. Telling the true story of the world in interior monolog
16. The jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye
17. Write in recollection and amazement for yourself
18. Work from pithy middle eye out, swimming in language sea
19. Accept loss forever
20. Believe in the holy contour of life
21. Struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact in mind
22. Dont think of words when you stop but to see picture better
23. Keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr morning
24. No fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience, language & knowledge
25. Write for the world to read and see yr exact pictures of it
26. Bookmovie is the movie in words, the visual American form
27. In praise of Character in the Bleak inhuman Loneliness
28. Composing wild, undisciplined, pure, coming in from under, crazier the better
29. You're a Genius all the time
30. Writer-Director of Earthly movies Sponsored & Angeled in Heaven

-Jack Kerouac